Spent the day clicking through a list of "to do's" mowing the lawn, countless loads of laundry, dusting, stripping beds...all in an attempt to do something ANYTHING with my nervous energy regarding our new life decision to have more children. I had my tubes tied at 22 almost 23 (I know DUMB!) I never could have guessed I'd be remarried and would want to expand my family. Because my biological clock is ticking SO LOUD it's keeping my up at night I think we've decided to explore invitro over reversal. I'm sure my mind will change 1000x's over the next months but WHOA I'm overwhelmed. I'm not that girl that carries children easily or well....it's always a big production which is what led me to want the tubal ligation after a less than easy pregnancy. I don't want to spend a couple years hoping the reversal worked only to end up with invitro. The main hurdle for me is the option of selective reduction should a higher number then 2 be viable. I cried and cried reading the procedure last night, my faith and beliefs are also at odds with that procedure. This will be the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm thankful to have you all to share this with xoxoMonday, July 5, 2010
247/365 Robin
Spent the day clicking through a list of "to do's" mowing the lawn, countless loads of laundry, dusting, stripping beds...all in an attempt to do something ANYTHING with my nervous energy regarding our new life decision to have more children. I had my tubes tied at 22 almost 23 (I know DUMB!) I never could have guessed I'd be remarried and would want to expand my family. Because my biological clock is ticking SO LOUD it's keeping my up at night I think we've decided to explore invitro over reversal. I'm sure my mind will change 1000x's over the next months but WHOA I'm overwhelmed. I'm not that girl that carries children easily or well....it's always a big production which is what led me to want the tubal ligation after a less than easy pregnancy. I don't want to spend a couple years hoping the reversal worked only to end up with invitro. The main hurdle for me is the option of selective reduction should a higher number then 2 be viable. I cried and cried reading the procedure last night, my faith and beliefs are also at odds with that procedure. This will be the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm thankful to have you all to share this with xoxo
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Aw, good luck to you sweetie. I can sort of relate. My new man is fixed and I'm thinking about another baby but my clock is ticking too and my daughter was born 8 weeks early, so I, too, am really nervous. My man would have to get unfixed, for $10K, and there's still no guarantee. If you ever want to talk, e-mail me. Hugs!
Hugs, love and prayers to you, Robin. You are a beautiful soul who should have anything you desire and I hope God blesses you with a child through this process. You and your "Hubs" are in my thoughts.
thank you both so much. This whole process is so unnatural and out of my control (i'm totally a control freak HA!) that it's pushing me to places I've never been...but maybe that is a good thing! I'm sure we'll come through this changed, whether with a baby or without. I'm trying to embrace the changes but.... :)
Aw, good luck, Robin. I wouldn't focus too much on the selective reduction procedure right now. You don't even know if the issue will ever come up. Plus, if your faith is telling you not to do it, then if or when the time comes, you will know what decision to make.
Hi Robin... good luck to you Hun,my sis had IVF as her only option,she couldn't conceive naturally..she had 3 eggs put back but only had twin boys,natural selection is Gods way too so don't fret too much life has it's own way of making it right :)
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